Hi guys
Ok, where do I even start.. I'm going to sound like a whiny little baby now.. And I'm going to be completely honest, not too often that I complain this much, but I think I should be allowed to right now; to start off I haven't gotten dressed today. I'm waiting to find out if I will be accepted at this school or not.. So a lady called me and interviewed me, asked if I did drugs and weird questions like that, I turned on my I'm-such-a-sweet-girl voice and told her "no! Never done drugs!" which is true, so I'm not feeling guilty about anything, I didn't lie to her, however I did tell her that I don't even smoke, which I do.. But I'm gonna quit, so it doesn't matter. Anyway, she didn't call back, and probably won't until tomorrow.. (probably?! of course she won't until tomorrow! unless she has a huge crush on me, IT'S 03.30 AM!) so, anyway, which is the reason I haven't gotten dressed today, feel dirty, feel sick, feel hungry, and like a complete nervous wreck.
Basically I've slept all day, now there is no way I can go to bed, I'm gonna have to stay up all night terrified of what may come tomorrow. Terrified of the word "no". I haven't been able to eat, I've been in a real bad mood. Last time I felt like this was when someone I needed to get a hold of had their phone turned off for 2 days and I was scared. The situation isn't even the slightest the same, but the feeling is, for some weird reason.. it doesn't make sense. I guess I'm just really REALLY nervous about the final answer, I've kind of built my future plans around this, so if I get a "no" I'm going to have to change a lot of things, I didn't even think of a back-up plan because I was determined to do this.
This is by far one of the worst feelings I've ever had.
At least I wasn't alone about it, one of my bestfriends is waiting for the same answer, I know for sure the school will accept her though, so if I do too it will be kick-ass, since it's the same school.
Thank you for reading this, you'll never get those 3 minutes of your life back.
-Cfg
